Those are the words and thoughts that greeted me every day. I would often think to myself, "How did you get here? You have a captivating smile. That's why they believed in you? You are here by luck."
Those are terrible self sabotaging thoughts that penetrated my brain consistently. I would often play those words repeatedly in my mind like it was my favorite Beyonce track. One day, I took a hard look in the mirror and told myself that none of these things was the determining factor for my leadership rise.
In all actuality, what made me stand out as a leader was my ability to learn quickly, problem solve, have a vision, and motivate others to live up to their highest standards. I wasn't just a regular girl from Jamaica, Queen, but someone who could strategize, plan and get results. Throughout my journey, there were bumps and bruises. I often overcompensated for my idealistic ideas as a way to prove that I was worthy. Yes, I am a visionary. However, I can't possibly be an expert at everything.
Diving deeply into my strengths led me to understand that I need to rely on my team's expertise to execute the vision I see has made me grow and continue to grow as a leader. For example, I am a big-picture person who would never dare to create a detailed schedule or rattle my brain to keep all the small minutia things intact. However, I made sure that I curated and created a role that supports my vast ambition by bringing on board someone who falls in love with a minute-by-minute plan. My teammate isn't more competent than me, but they can see what my brain can't see since details are their passion. I compliment them by providing the big "picture" and how we can achieve our goals.
Now, I say, "Hello, Chief." Not because I'm perfect; I now understand that I am not an imposter, but I've been granted the opportunity to lead because of my experience and results-driven ability.
Here are some quick tips that I've used to combat my imposter syndrome
Battle your thought: Replace all negative thoughts with memories of your accomplishments.
Listen to music. Put on that song that reminds you that you are a "boss."
Morning routine. The moments before work are essential; honor your mind, body, and soul
Apologize: You are on a journey with bumps and bruises; admit when you are wrong and course correct.
You're here for a reason: Someone saw something special in you, and you've earned your position.
It’s all a part of leadership!
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